16.12.14

we find
ourselves joking
about death more often
than we should.
it could be closer than you
could have ever imagined.

Hello.

you were meant to conquer
but you to doubt yourself
you were meant to be extraordinary
but youre too afraid

Nami Danam -Amir Khusrau

Nami danam chi manzil bood shab jaay ki man boodam;
baharsu raqs-e bismil bood shab jaay ki man boodam.
Pari paikar nigaar-e sarw qadde laala rukhsare;
sarapa aafat-e dil bood shab jaay ki man boodam.
Khuda khud meer-e majlis bood andar laamakan Khusrau;
Muhammad shamm-e mehfil bood shab jaay ki man boodam.

Translation:

I wonder what was the place where I was last night,
all around me were half-slaughtered victims of love, tossing about in agony.
There was a nymph-like beloved with cypress-like form and tulip-like face,
ruthlessly playing havoc with the hearts of the lovers.
God himself was the master of ceremonies in that heavenly court,
oh Khusrau,
where (the face of) the Prophet too was shedding light like a candle.

I promise

one of these days
youll find me dead
or dying
in a field of tulips
at sunrise
and
it will be the most beautiful thing youve ever seen

For better or for worse.

coffee stained love letters
never sent
help keep you warm
on some of the coldest nights.

4:48 am

somewhere
between an aching body
and an aching soul
is a heart
that hopes
for a ceasefire
between the ego and the conscience

Rants for sale. Need to pay for internet.

What is a life without torrents is the question I that keeps me up at night because I recently changed my internet connection to a network that doesn't understand human needs. I stay up all night thinking about all the movies I would be watching if it weren't for capitalism. They promise you unlimited internet that expires after 30GBs. So you actually get 30GBs and high hopes followed by slow internet and heart break.
Everyone's talking about the latest shows and episodes and you're like yeah, I have unlimited internet but it's reached it's limit so I'll just buy the DVDs.

6:17am is when you fuck grammar.

sometimes
all you want
is nothing more
than to mean something
to someone
and do things
that matter
because
when you die
people don't remember
the things you did
but
the things you made them feel

Welcome back, self.

Hey, youu.

I realize I haven't been around as much as I should've, but I'm here now and it feels great.
I shall return with something worth reading and writing.

Till then,
A.